Leigh

So dC decided to take us away on a weekend stint and it was fun! Tiring of course but it was amazing to travel NZ and check out the beaches.

Our goal initially was to hang out at Pakiri beach but we ended up hopping 3 beaches instead haha. Headed to Mahurangi bay first where there wasn't too much wind, some sand and safe enough for ezra to check out the sea water.

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Mahurangi West - confusing to find on the web

Then to Windy Pakiri where we couldn't do much as the weather turned. E loved the smooth sand and he managed to see a huge kite (used for kite surfing). dC also attempted his drone in this crazy weather.

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Pakiri, very wide and sandy but so windy sand blew into Li'l E's eyes

As the sun came out we quickly hung out at Goats island. Ezra was so cute when he stood amongst the waves and felt like he was falling backwards when the wave went back. Wasn't there long, 3 mins and off we went to our accommodation. Very well set up so that we don't even need bed sheets and towels! We did bring them.

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Goat Island, just 3 minutes from our Accomodation

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They call this place the Penguin Rest (owner lives on top)

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View from our place

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It was near a walkway too so off we went just down the driveway to check out. Very nice views all around by the cliff as well as we always felt like we were walking into someone's backyard.

Tried Leigh's Eat (famous fish and chips shop), pricey but meal was good overall.

All that over one day. Next day we tried to check out horse riding for li'l E but the storm overnight damaged the site so they were closed. Off we went to see me sis at Kaiwaka (yay). Hung out till E was a little bored of the chickens and mud plus the weather was really crazy (4-in-1 again) so we looked up the swimming pools and dinner.

Ended up at Glenfield Leisure Center (nice place with more than enough family room) and had Korean for dinner at Biwon. There was actually a night market happening next to the Leisure Center and I bumped into a fellow instructor too. Nice facility as well.

New Year 2017 - Blueberry Country

So how did we celebrate New Years kiwi toddler style? By heading to the Blueberry farm!

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Entrance 

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Initially was interested (and scared) to get up on the 4 wheel quad bike

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After just 10 mins he got bored

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Even the dad was trying to persuade him while I busy plucked away

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 He prefer to do this instead

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And whilst I enjoy my yummy ice cream (only $4.50!)

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He would show me signs he's bored by playing with soil

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Or this

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Came with friends of family

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His mood completely changed when we went to Miranda hot springs. Didn't want to leave the pool...

Launch, Date & Ambury

Had a couple of launches over the weekend! They have it's ups and downs, from members loving the candle ambiance, to member threatening to cancel membership just because the Air con wasn't cold enough. I learnt to be more resilient and come up with ideas to manage the class coz hey, I cannot do things beyond my control. Only within, the rest I leave to the universe to sort for me.

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Christmassy theme at CLM The Bays

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Candles to keep me company at LM Howick

And......What do you do before your MIL takes off for a month? Go on a date so she can babysit! She did really well actually, didn’t bother us most times but gave her a set of instructions to follow for nap time routine. She did her own way of feeding Ezra by the spoon too. I guess we can manage by mixing things up abit for him. We went on a Thai massage at Golden Fingers first and man the lady I had was SO GOOD. I asked for Golden Thai version and they said it’s their signature mixing between rubs and stretches. She went from top down with some focus in the legs and back. WOW, she used her ENTIRE body on me. Elbows, fingers and even the legs to get into the big muscles (OMG my hamstrings were TIGHT!). And she released my spine and neck with a few clicks (but safe). I could not fall asleep because it was sore in some areas, so nice in others and only a small area was so so. Gosh, if I come back for this I’ll ask for her again. They might have taken their best two for us lol.

We explored Ponsonby together, after deciding out an Argentinian restaurant on Zomato so we finally were in Ponsonby Central at El Chorizo with wood fire steaks. OMG, meat over load but it was so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooooo good. Not often we have HUGE steak ribs coming off the bone so tender and juicy. dC mentioned his craving was finally satisfied as he could not find this in Singapore nor Malaysia. We wandered along the streets checking out new cafes and restaurants and enjoyed ice cream.

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El Chorizo

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Really proud of what they have done to this place 

 Back to full mode on Sunday. Swim lessons for Ezra (he was abit off this session, and I almost forgot my togs). He’s such a careful boy. We had lunch at Westfield Pakuranga while waiting for our friends for Ambury farm and off we went. Ezra was really constipated the whole session where he finally poop whilst looking at a bunch of letters. He was left behind most times in terms of walking, looking and touching animals. As well as he was really grumpy because he only had half an hour of nap. I didn’t enjoy the trip myself (not sure why).

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Old MacDonald had a farm, E-I-E-I-O

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And on his farm he had Ezra, and a cow....E-I-E-I-O

We then went to see the Avocado farm, which lies within a maori land. By the time we got there, most avocados were gone haha. Only the once very very high up were around, needed a good stone thrower to get those down. We headed back early to settle and me to teach. I was excited to teach just because I had a mentor who gave me a few more pointers in being in the present moment for the members. It was good, though the Air con was on the lower side plus the room became hot since it was not used. I had members coming up to me telling me how they love the class, even one came up telling me that there was an ‘asian’ instructor (unfortunately I could not speak the language) and it was me and she was quite glad in some ways that I exist haha. Oh well…there is only so much I can do and learn from. And I am thinking of moving more into the Yoga world in my own practice at my own time to see if I grow to like it.

Mangawhai, a year later

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Earlier this year, he was just beginning to walk

 Weekends come and gone with the previous one being amazing just coz we had both days with sunshine outside.

So off we went to visit my sis up north, and we also headed out to Mangawhai heads with little one and his playdate. The winds were really blowing but little E was completely ignorant about everything except for water and sand. Belle though had a tough time with her poor eczema condition, so the water and sandy winds were hurting her. We were not there for long but it was just amazing to admire beauty with our kids. We pretty much pushed E’s nap so by the time we got him out we had to be quick and got him dried up. He knocked out in his car and so off we went to my sis’s place where there where chooks and tea made. They are slowly getting one container done by having the kitchen and bathroom set up so watch the live show of getting one side of the container ‘sliced’ for the doors. 
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Wellsford, found a nice bridge at the back

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Matching outfits that looks good on both =)

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The puddle he didn't want to get out eventhough he was slowly freezing. It took a good hour before his body got back to normal temperature

E unusually woke up before 7am the next day, crying to go out. I think he was wanting his swim lessons? No idea but was a late night sleep and an early rise for him. We were finally in the right session for swimming, he was really engaged and it didn’t take long to pick up the new skills he learnt on the spot and it’s amazing to see how much he absorbs in the pool. We were pretty much at home to recover, so I had a nap before teaching my class in the evening. I love weekends like this.

Labour Weekend

Long weekend!

What did I do what did I do….well, pretty much the usual haha. Loads of kids activities so it started off with a Bang at the movies where Ezra only watched it for a good 5 mins before he got bored. So off I went gallivanting with him up and down the cinema (where he accidently bang his head against a window) and then to the toy shop down the road (where he greedily played with many fire engines). We had lunch (good ole pizza) at Garrisons and caught up with people. And then on was another birthday invite and spontaneous event the next day, bbq at a friend’s place. Will talk about that later in the second paragraph. After that we then took our time to head to my parent’s place where Ezra is getting more confident at running the outskirts of the trampoline. I took the opportunity to take more of his favourite things for speech therapy on Thursday. Dinner was at Mamarich and Ezra too spent time making wonderful mess exploring the food he had.

Sunday started off later in the afternoon, where we head off to a friend’s place who pretty much have everything a little kid can wish for. Really cool toys, a backyard, bbq, 2-storey house with a warm sundeck. Comfy modern living room but little E was a little overwhelmed with the environment. We tried to get the both boys to play with each other but it isn’t happening. And I think little E was a little anxious and feeling the need of being led by me. I had to rush off back for class and came back again which of course took 3 hours since this event was organised spontaneously. Coming back I knew something was gona happen and it was true, Ezra missed me and felt lost even when dC was there. Sigh. And he’s not used to the kids rowdiness since he hasn’t been exposed to playing with them. The only place that he opened up was the bathtub. So he felt much better in the bath with the kids playing side-on with foam.

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Playmate who's only 2 months older than him, fighting for the same car toy


I’ve never asked for this and I do wish sometimes he appreciates his dad more often. Oh well.

There were more plans on Monday but the weather clouded it on its entirety. So the plans for the beach was scraped and I was sulking because it was my extra day off. So I pushed to go indoors eventhough it’s a short time at Kelly Tarltons. Ezra was grumpy, and I had no idea what he was moaning about all morning (sore stomach I’m guessing) so it was on my nerves. He felt much better when I took him for an hour an abit at Kelly T. He was mesmerised not by penguins (since they stood still on land and floated above water) but the conveyer that took him around the aquarium. He took time to look above (after 2 rounds of running round) before we were told to move onwards. And it took time for him to notice the wet area at the Playland. I pretty much went into the playland with him and he was happily following my lead. Down the slide, up the stair, through the bips and bops and then he was attracted with the numbers and letters on the wall. He admired the fishes in the aquarium (specially those clown and blue fish from Finding Nemo) but of course was attracted to dipping his hand into any aquarium. Gotta come here again :=).

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Finding 'Nemo' and 'Dory'

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Glad I can still crawl inside....

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Waterrrrr~~~~ for 5 minutes before closing hour

Off to Silo park we went, where we had fish and chips (lousy, remind me not to come into town for that meal) and playing with water and sand. We trained him to walk on different terrains so it was up and down the foothpath hill where he slows down and speeds up. I think it works his reflexes too as he had to co-ordinate and can’t really measure the height of the cement ground. Off home and it was timely for his shower since he pooped lol. We have the usual nursery rhymes in bed, but the lights needs to be off for an hour before he gives into his sleep at 10.30pm.

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See what happens if you press the button? Water~~~~

Yep, no surprises that he woke up at 4.45am this morning hungry but sleepy and pushed me out of bed.

Auckland Zoo

Random day at the zoo...

That was what the weekend was all about just coz it was the only day the sun came out! My whole whanau was back too so it was a few trip runs to their place to just get Ezra out and about with fresh air and new environment =). Plus more mother and son bonding. I do am hoping he will have a sibling just so they both can get on the same level (doubt it these days, oh well). So it’s mainly on play dates (yay).

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Gona frame this up for my dad...

Saturday started off with me heading over to Mom’s with ezra while he is awake as we slowly thought of plans to do. It was initially lunch, but the weather was really good so a friend of ours whom I wanted to have Ezra tagging along with suggested the zoo. I did want to bring my sis along so off we went (as soon as dC wakes up). 3 hours was enough to enjoy the whole event. Li’l E was also engaged by Li’l B and we are amazed on his progress of observing other kids around him and he really wants to follow what they do. We are really hoping that things progress as the day goes and that it was just a mere milestone he had left behind maybe because we really attended to his cries which was a need back then.

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Little B and E, together they BE friends haha (cheezy)

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We had dinner at Goode Brothers (service was amazing as ever) and E loved pizza, and everything fed by the hands. It’s a little tricky when it comes to feeding as he doesn’t really want to take from the spoon but he wants to feed himself. Either that, his taste buds have kickstarted and so the creativity of food begins. I sense he has my likings for food.

On Sunday we had a huge breakfast, then tim sum before checking my sis’s ‘Under the Same Moon’ official show. We got E to try the food and his similarities in food liking was affirmative when we got him to try egg tart. Hah. So Maybe he likes veges too kekeke. He was babysat while we watched the show (phew) and we journeyed our way home after as I had a class to teach. First class, and it was a little scary because it was a quiet show and I had to carefully manage my voice on top of the music. It was off home and another brain rummaging moment to feed him, and play with him. These days it is full on as we constantly have to find something to teach him and something to keep him happy. I guess it’s a struggle when there is limited freedom as sometimes I’d gladly bring him out in the open darkness for him to experience what night is all about. Maybe I just might when the weather warms up. He could see stars, watch lights of cars passing by, street lamps, and the hustle of cats sneaking around the neighbourhood.

 Not much photos as there were formal ones taken! Best part is Ezra automatically adapted and moved out of his jetlagged almost effortlessly (yayyyy)

Eve before leaving Asia

Nothing much, hung out at Mid Valley where things has changed abit.
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I think I better buy a big poster with Alphabets on it

So happen there was a baby show and bump into a really old time friend who used to be a swimmer. He's got a kid who is 2 months shy from E. Big difference in sizes lol.

But the trip has been truly amazing, especially spending time with E. He was initially fussy with eating because of his sore throat, and through the trip he has gotten close to me. Clingy I would perceive. I was of course surprised and touched by his gestures. He now can fall asleep being held with his head over our shoulder and in the stroller.

And through the trip, you just can't stop wondering if your kid is ok as he has actually reduced his eye contact with many but me when he needs milk and this time when he needs a hug. It's hard as we struggle to teach him when he isn't looking. He is babbling and now tries to pronounce numbers. Often around the mall he stops and looks at numbers and letters.

Through the trip one things shakens my mind. With some of his 'milestones' behind, one would think he may have a mild 'Autism Spectrum Disorder' from afar. It's just worrying to see the symptoms read all labeled on him. And so the snowball effect of my thoughts began. Just how I predict death of my loved ones, I have a nature to accept the worse even before the worse may or may not happen. To get over the denial stage because embracing the uncertainties, embracing change is never easy. We too need our security blanket to come back to. So I tend to search hard, to see if he is subtly communicating in his usual conservative and introverted ways. As I too am subtle myself. The things that are listed in the disorder spectrum are the things I do right up to date. But of course I don't think my parents would remember the time I was barely 2.

My thoughts as others would perceive is how would I react should the worse come? Right now it's devastation. Right now I would be in sheer denial. Often we take things for granted and this has shaken me. I just hop I am doing the right thing. Or perhaps something to get me closer to him so that he can manage to get by with my support.

Anyway, flying home felt long as I had to stay awake to beat the jetlag. I saw a couple of movies though which was touching and fun. X-men Apocalypse and The Intern. Getting out of the airport was long through bio security but it didn't take long to get out of the plane and immigration.